the heart has funny ways of reminding me of things i want to forget..of memories i want to fade out...

i remember looking out of the bus with a heavy heart of parting....i remember looking down and my heart skipped a beat...for there he was following us for as far as he could...i will never forget that moment, or that look,...time stood still as i watched him trying to juggle driving and looking at me at the same time...

i remember during our student days...i would bunk classses and spend days at his campus...and pretend to reach home at the same time others would after classes...and every time he would drop me home in an auto and catch the bus back...just so we could get that extra half hour together...i remember this once, when just before jumping off the auto, he suddenly turned around and kissed my cheek...i will never forget that touch..that feeling...

i remember the accident, the hospital bed, the waiting room, the tantrums he threw, and how he insisted i feed him his lunch till the nurse gave up and walked away...cos that was the only way she could get him to eat...i will never forget that anxiety, that tension..that never ending wait...

i remember sitting on the beach for hours together, having random conversations...and sometimes talking nothing at all..staring at the beach....i will never forget the sound of the sea, and that silence comfort...

i remember writhing in pain in the middle of hte night, sure i would die...i remember calling him..and for four hours he sang me songs, and told me stories of movies he had seen, till i fell asleep...i will never forget that deep slumber...that comfort...

i remember falling asleep in his arms...feeling protected, safe, loved, and precious...i remember that night after we fought...he had fallen asleep..and i sat in the next room being comforted by friends....and then i went in much much later...he sensed my presence...and in his sleep said he loved me, and would marry none other...i will never forget the way my heart soared...i will never forget that it was the first time in all the years of knowing him that he said i love you in a way that brought tears to my eyes...

and now we reached that fork..that seperated our roads...i dont know if the roads would ever meet again....but i know that i will never forget...