its been so long..and i still never penned down any thing about my love....its a shame. so here it goes.....
ok like all stories..i would like to start this one at the beginning. now i must warn you this is going to be one long and never ending story.....so i just mite write this in parts. ok so anyways the first time i met him....the very first time i saw him..i would like to say i kept feel the sparks flying between us, the chemistry. sigh!!! wouldnt it have been the most romantic. imagine one look into his eyes and love was tangible.......but no. how it actually went was...he came to my coll to give a packet to one of my classmates. i was introduced to him..he turned around and gave me a brief momentary glance...one that said..ya watever. and contd the conversation with my friend. i mean..i was fuming!! ok granted im not a ms. universe...but c'mon..u can do better than just a glance. well anyways..i stood there for ten mins completely ignored by both of them..and then he left. but something about him touched me somewhere..cos here was a guy who had come all the way from one end of the city just to deliver a couple of letters, a few chocolates that the girl's boyfriend had sent her. that was a sweet thing to do i felt. so i forgave him for treating me the way he did...made peace with myself, moved on and completely forgot about this incident. little did i know that small meeting was going to change my life forever.
a few days later the very same friend msgs a stranger from my cell. one thing led to another and we started chatting. now this stranger wanted to call me and i freaked out.. i mean you know wat with all hte dont talk to strangers thats been built into you since childhood. turned out the complete stranger was a decent (or atleast thats what i thought so at that tme especially cos he was from iit) nice little boy..and i dont mean little as in 3 years of age....you know wat i mean.
anyways we got talking..and talking and then did quiet a lot of talking. things were going pretty smoothly till i was invited out for lunch for someones treat. then my suspicion antennas started picking up vibes which till date i dont know if htey existed or not. cos this someone was the strangers friend whom i never met. and i never even spoken to that guy till the time whne he was inviting me for lunch. oh boy...i felt highly uncomfortable. but i went..and i felt much worse. but that is a story in itself. anyways..the lunch was a complete disaster. but out the disaster rose a beautiful friendship with him. by the way this was the time i realised the guy i met in college and this complete stranger wre the same....i mean wat were the odds..actually quite high. but i was too dumb to put two and two together.
like i said i was highly suspicious that this guy was upto some other mischief..that he wanted more than just friendship. well i couldnt digest the fact and decided to confront him...and till date i think that has been my wisest decision. for it instantly cleared the air between us..and we went on to become fast and firm friends. i cherish that friendship so much that i miss it till date even htough we share a much more meaningful relation now. he was the kind of friend i always was looking for. ive said this many times about him..and i say it again..he is brutally honest..and that changed me so much cos i knew he was genuine..when ppl around u are genuine you tend to reciprocate similar emotions..so i became truthful and genuine. and alhtough i find it realyl hard now...i still try and follow it. As friends we used to talk for hours over hte phone..and he always had htis uncanny ability to make me laugh. at one pt he even asked me if i thought he was a joker...cos i was always laughing. we never had anything extraordinary to say to each other..yet time would just fly talking to him. we both swore that al that would come out of this was friendship and not love or anything liek that to mess up wat we had...somwhere i thnk both of us were scared that somehting like that would ruin the friendship and then we would be left with nothing. we both believed more in friendship than in love...nad i think even today we both still do.
well how we fell in love is something i have to continue in the next part. this started out as a blog dedicated totalyl to him. i was going to write all about him, his nature, his shortcomings. but somehow landed up writinga ll this. as a writer i just let my thoughts flow and dont obstruct it....but somewhere i believe that in the process of charting out our year long journey with each other...and thats all it has been..one year..i will eventually get down to talking only about him..till then if he reads this..i request him to be patient.