im sitting here in the middle of the night, waiting for you to pick up the phone and gimme a call. why? why do i keep staring at the phone every minute waiting for it to ring. dont call, my heart says, atleast msg...so i know you are thinking about me. i cant wait any longer and pick up the phone and call myself...you forgot you say. and thats just that. im stumped. i feel foolish and miserable. my ego tells me to bang the phone down immediately but i am reluctant. give him another chance.
i put down the phone after some time..and dont feel good about myself. is this all the self respect i have? for no wonder i am unable to command any respect from others. forgot?????how can you forget calling the person whom u call the most important in your life? or atleast one of the most important? but i dont learn easily. next time round...i am again staring at the phone willing it to ring. this time you are busy you say..talking to your friends.
i know you loves me..i love him too...so these kind of silly things shouldnt matter right? but they do...why?? i dont know wat love is...im not trying to figure it out....all i know is..i pine to hear your voice..i long to be with you. your pain is my sorrow..your laughter my joy. then why dont you feel my pain? the pain of being ignored? the pain of wanting to be with the one you love but unable to do so?
u know how there are days when ur so low that you just need the support of your loved ones..to stand against you and hold u up. this was one of those days..and you were not there for me. now i think about it....so many days when i felt like i needed you badly..u shrugged it off saying..i was being unnecessarily senti. maybe your rite...i am being so. but i still need you damn it. and ur still not there. im still sitting here staring at the phone waiting for it to ring so i know your thinking about me!!